Miscommunication...

It seems that no matter what I do I'm bound to be mis-heard. And of course a fight insues. Just once I'd like i'd like people to understand that I make mistakes and just let me apologize for them and move on. Why do they alway have to start a war. I don't know how to solve this. I am not a wise man, far from it. I am who I am. Who I was raised to be.

Introverted.
Unmotivated.
Lazy.
unfailing.

I cannot hope to express my feelings to anybody. I cannot hope that they will understand me. It is beyond my ability to deal with people on a rational level. Like all humans my perspective on the world is unique and there is nothing I can say or do that will bring others to my view point.

Everythings I say or do is a lie. I am not worth the time and effort of dealing with.

Miscommunication

It seems that no matter what I do I'm bound to be mis-heard. And of course a fight ensues. Just once I'd like I'd like people to understand that I make mistakes and just let me apologize for them and move on. Why do they always have to start a war. I don't know how to solve this. I am not a wise man, far from it. I am who I am. Who I was raised to be.

Introverted.
Unmotivated.
Lazy.
Unfeeling.

I cannot hope to express my feelings to anybody. I cannot hope that they will understand me. It is beyond my ability to deal with people on a rational level. Like all humans my perspective on the world is unique and there is nothing I can say or do that will bring others to my view point.

everything I say or do is a lie. I am not worth the time and effort of dealing with.

Bored....

It's 11:16 and I'm sitting in my room alone. Bored out of my mind. Not much to do at 11:00 on a Saturday. Don't even know why I am sitting here alone, except that Jen is once again mad at me. Or at least I think she is. I don't know. All I know is that I am alone in my room, and she is in hers. Maybe I'll watch a movie, or something, my computer isn't helping my bordem, nor can I sleep.

Why does this happen? Why do we do the things that we do?

I love her, beyond anything I've ever loved, but I can't stand it when she gets mad at someone else and takes it out on me. She had a fight with Cameron, and her aggravation trickled down to me. I know this is the case, it happens every time they fight. But there isn't anything I can do about it. I made attempts at hanging out. Asked if she wanted to watch the movie that we where supposed to watch and she ignored me. Blew me off. So I sit alone, waiting in the dark for something to do.

Why?

Why won't sleep come to me?