Feeling shitty.

It's 4:13 in the morning and I'm laying in bed listening to my headphones. I spent the last hour and a half laying here trying to sleep with no luck. It's a shitty feeling to be stuck home alone on New Years. I didn't even bother to watch the ball drop because Jen was stuck at work. It's here holiday on, so she had no choice. It's holiday pay which is nice, but it still sucks to be stuck home alone.

Even if I didn't have Mike here with me I couldn't have gone out and done anything. My back wouldn't allow it. Not that it matters, even if my back was good and Mike was at Jen's folks I wouldn't want to go out, I miss my wife.

The closest thing we can come to hanging out is to text each other while she works. I can't even call her because I have no phone. I have to text from my Yahoo account.

Such a shitty feeling, and I can't even sleep it off.

My back hurts. Yippy.